A lover of life, a self-confessed ‘Googler’, a photo opportunist, a serious shoe freak, a marketing maniac and a girl who is seriously Jesus crazy, with an unquenchable passion for all things awesome! Well these are just a few choice phrases that define who I truly am at heart.
However, this brilliant, vibrant, life-loving spirit was trapped within an unfit, unhappy and lazy body for a long time! Marriage, kids and life happened and yes I let myself slip. I am not proud of it but it happened. I remained the confident, exciting and fashion loving girl that I was but many things changed. I couldn’t really wear the clothes I loved because I had to wear what suited my larger figure (and although I looked great in it, I wasn’t truly happy). My most prized piece of clothing was my spandex tights (tummy tucker) that kept everything in place and made me look a size smaller.
Though content with life, I needed a change and I need one desperately…and 2014 marked my year of change! I no longer wanted to be the girl who just wished that she looked good in her clothes, who had a small enough frame, who had a body that resembled a somewhat sexy figure, who had to pretend that being overweight was no big deal…because honestly it mattered to me more than anyone knew! I hated my body and although I pretended to be ‘ok’ with it, I wasn’t really.
I reminisced about the days when I literally could wear anything and look amazing, I wished for those days back. I tried every weight loss pill and magic potion that was available, I would crash diet for a few weeks and lose a few kilo’s and that would send me over the moon but within a few weeks I would put it all back (if not more) and I would feel worse than I did before I started. I wasn’t a big eater but I ate the wrong foods and I felt as guilty as hell for it!
In April 2014, I did what most people do over the Easter holidays, I spent it with family and all we did was eat, party and make merry. We took lots of photo’s to save the memories but when I saw them I hated what I saw and I refused to post even one on Facebook. I resembled a whale (exaggeration) and I looked larger than everyone else in the photos. I hit rock bottom and I hated myself even more. To make matters worse, that week I weighed myself in my doctor’s rooms and I weighed a whopping 79kgs, I was horrified!
The self loathe that I felt became my motivation, I decided that I could no longer blame child birth, work schedules, being a mom and wife with a home to run and all the other excuses that I used in the past to explain why I was fat! I needed to get off my fat ass and do something or nothing was going to change…and I did!
My purpose in life today, is to be an encouragement to everyone wanting to lose weight and gain control of their life. I know what it feels like to hate yourself, to feel desperate, to want to lose weight but you just can’t stick to it. I am proof that you can lose weight if you just get your mind-set right and convince yourself that you want it bad enough. The biggest battle we fight is within ourselves, once we convince ourselves we can achieve anything!
To date, I have lost a staggering 23kgs! I have dropped from a size 40 to 30/32 depending on the cut. I look 15 years younger and I have the energy of a teenager again. I love my body now, I love getting dressed, I love shopping for new clothes, I eat well and I make the time to exercise even though my life is hectic. I have my cheat days, I think it is healthy and normal to cheat every now and then but I get right back into my routine because I will NEVER EVER want to be fat again!
This is my story and if you would like to get healthy tips, weight loss encouragement, motivation and a friend who wants nothing more than to help you succeed, then follow my blog and keep up with me as I go through this fit girl movement.